This put up seems as a part of our More healthy 2021 collection, wherein we observe three WebMD staff members as they try to enhance their well being this yr. You’ll be able to observe their journeys here.
By Invoice Kimm
Penning this weblog the previous 2 months has been a improbable motivator. Realizing I must write about my progress every week pressured me to be accountable. There was no means I used to be going to permit myself to fail understanding I must admit it right here.
However this weblog wasn’t meant to be everlasting, and now that we’re winding down, I want to search out different motivators to maintain me centered. And that’s the place I’ve to watch out.
I dwell with despair. And in remedy for my despair, I’ve realized I wrestle with perfectionism too (which simply results in extra despair). I’m my worst critic. I’m fast to see the place I may need come up brief or failed, and in these conditions, it’s exhausting for me to see something optimistic about myself. As you possibly can think about, this self-criticism isn’t very useful whenever you’re attempting to drop extra pounds and dwell more healthy! So discovering the appropriate motivators is necessary for me.
By remedy, I’m realizing a number of the instruments that I’ve used prior to now for motivation might have truly been working towards me.
My Apple Watch, my Lose It app — each of those present badges, awards, and encouragement to maintain me centered and on observe. They’re enjoyable to win however also can turn out to be addictive (and have for me prior to now). My therapist and I agree I shouldn’t focus solely on these gratifications. They assist, and it’s thrilling to attain them, however they too simply can flip into instruments of measurement, which can provide my internal critics one thing to nag me about. So I’ve realized that I can benefit from the badges after they pop-up, however I must keep away from utilizing them as motivation.
One other motivator for me has been watching folks get wholesome, be it on social media or in my circle of associates. There may be nothing higher than seeing the enjoyment of others who discover success of their journey, and it offers a lot encouragement and motivation for me. However I’m additionally ridiculously aggressive. And a part of me turns into jealous of their success. Theodore Roosevelt is quoted as saying, “Comparability is the thief of pleasure.” There may be quite a lot of reality to that. The one journey similar to mine is mine. As I have fun their achievements, I additionally have to be cautious to not let the success of others taint the best way I take a look at how properly I’m doing.
Each of those “motivators” can amplify my despair. Once I don’t shut all three rings on my watch, I beat myself up; when a pal is operating additional and quicker than me, I believe I’m a failure and why trouble anymore. And that self-criticism feeds my despair. It results in extra laziness, extra stress consuming, not caring anymore, and a funk that will get more durable and more durable to get out of. Fortunately, I’ve an incredible therapist who has helped me work by these challenges the previous 7 months, and I’ve realized the way to higher handle my ideas. I even have an incredible help system in my household, my associates, and particularly, my More healthy 2021 teammates Mark and Laura, who’ve taught me a lot on our journey collectively.
Dr. Bruni, WebMD’s Lead Medical Director, instructed me again in January, “You’re investing in your self. That is greater than weight reduction, that is your life!”